It was may 23, 2011....8:51 AM....I saw her for the first time......she was gorgeous.....i became numb when i saw her....there are no words to describe her. i was speechless......at that very moment, i thought 'is this what people call as 'love at first sight'?'.....i knew the answer.....i loved her...but remember, this was the first i was seeing her, i haven't even talked to her, i don't even know her name......but i was sure that she will be the love of my life.....
The teacher asked for a class leader......my bloody fucking best friends shouted my name...and thus i was trapped and i became the first class leader....i was proud, after all i became the first class leader.....
My duty was assigned for one month.....it was a great chance for me to impress her....but i didn't do it.....i didn't feel like doing it...and one more thing, i was sitting near her for the whole year, and i didn't even tried to talk with her...i was like a funny and weird guy in front of her, i guess(am i?), but in front of my friends, teachers and family, i was funny,normal and kind of perfect.....
It was fun going to school now, because i knew that i would be able to see her....in her school dress, hair tied into a pony tail with a beautiful arrogance on her face for being someone very different...
she talked only to a rare species of guys. she was unlike other girls who talked with everyone and anyone with the same smile. she was a class apart.
Her facial expressions changed from person to person and situation to situation......
My love for her had started...it was love at first sight...it was initiated by her first look...and it was growing deeper and deeper with each passing day finding the same look in her eyes.
I started loving her from the bottom of my heart.....i started thinking about her only....
I was now coming to school with the wish that i would be able to see her...i would be able to feel her closeness, though from slight far apart. i would be able to see the most beautiful face i had ever seen in my life.....i would be able to wait for her with a song on my lips......
"kab se kare hain tera intezaar..."
I would be able to see her fresh and beautiful face, entering the class with her bag on her shoulders
I always had a smile on my face every time i saw her. a smile that came from the very bottom of my heart, from deep within my soul. a smile that showed that someone was really happy and fulfilled by just looking at her from a distance. a smile that parched earth would give to the first tiny droplets of rain falling on its surface...a smile that rainbow gives to a clear blue fresh sky after a long rainy stormy night.....
I smiled, my soul smiled....as my heart and all of me with my complete existence altogether, became so joyful just by seeing her...just by feeling her presence....just by looking in her deep eyes to find strictness and seriousness....just by feeling how much i started loving her.......
So it all started to become a routine now. i enjoyed going to school just to see her. she was in my class,in my section, sitting near me. she was beautiful, and i loved her with all my heart...what else could i have asked for..what else did i desire.....what else could i have dreamt of...nothing actually.....
As soon as i would see her my heart would skip some beats. i was always so anxious and restless that it was like giving some examination for which you are not at all prepared.....or the feeling of an unprepared interview.
S he always looked gorgeous
Gorgeous enough to make me lose all my senses and to just keep looking at her.
Feeling her beauty and decency.......her looks and dignity...her smartness and attitude...and everything else about her.it was so fascinating that i always lost myself somewhere in her persona and softness...
i used to follow her everywhere with my friend in the recess, just to get a glimpse of her smile, her attitude, her grace and her softness
My life suddenly had wonderful meanings to me.....
I t was much more significant now.
The new aim of my life was to keep looking at her splendid beauty
It was so fulfilling to keep looking at her or for that matter just to get a small sweet glimpse of her....or even feel that she was somewhere around, no matter if i was able to see her or not, but she was somewhere right there....that it enormously filled the void inside me..... :)
The teacher asked for a class leader......my bloody fucking best friends shouted my name...and thus i was trapped and i became the first class leader....i was proud, after all i became the first class leader.....
My duty was assigned for one month.....it was a great chance for me to impress her....but i didn't do it.....i didn't feel like doing it...and one more thing, i was sitting near her for the whole year, and i didn't even tried to talk with her...i was like a funny and weird guy in front of her, i guess(am i?), but in front of my friends, teachers and family, i was funny,normal and kind of perfect.....
It was fun going to school now, because i knew that i would be able to see her....in her school dress, hair tied into a pony tail with a beautiful arrogance on her face for being someone very different...
she talked only to a rare species of guys. she was unlike other girls who talked with everyone and anyone with the same smile. she was a class apart.
Her facial expressions changed from person to person and situation to situation......
My love for her had started...it was love at first sight...it was initiated by her first look...and it was growing deeper and deeper with each passing day finding the same look in her eyes.
I started loving her from the bottom of my heart.....i started thinking about her only....
I was now coming to school with the wish that i would be able to see her...i would be able to feel her closeness, though from slight far apart. i would be able to see the most beautiful face i had ever seen in my life.....i would be able to wait for her with a song on my lips......
"kab se kare hain tera intezaar..."
I would be able to see her fresh and beautiful face, entering the class with her bag on her shoulders
I always had a smile on my face every time i saw her. a smile that came from the very bottom of my heart, from deep within my soul. a smile that showed that someone was really happy and fulfilled by just looking at her from a distance. a smile that parched earth would give to the first tiny droplets of rain falling on its surface...a smile that rainbow gives to a clear blue fresh sky after a long rainy stormy night.....
I smiled, my soul smiled....as my heart and all of me with my complete existence altogether, became so joyful just by seeing her...just by feeling her presence....just by looking in her deep eyes to find strictness and seriousness....just by feeling how much i started loving her.......
So it all started to become a routine now. i enjoyed going to school just to see her. she was in my class,in my section, sitting near me. she was beautiful, and i loved her with all my heart...what else could i have asked for..what else did i desire.....what else could i have dreamt of...nothing actually.....
As soon as i would see her my heart would skip some beats. i was always so anxious and restless that it was like giving some examination for which you are not at all prepared.....or the feeling of an unprepared interview.
S he always looked gorgeous
Gorgeous enough to make me lose all my senses and to just keep looking at her.
Feeling her beauty and decency.......her looks and dignity...her smartness and attitude...and everything else about her.it was so fascinating that i always lost myself somewhere in her persona and softness...
i used to follow her everywhere with my friend in the recess, just to get a glimpse of her smile, her attitude, her grace and her softness
My life suddenly had wonderful meanings to me.....
I t was much more significant now.
The new aim of my life was to keep looking at her splendid beauty
It was so fulfilling to keep looking at her or for that matter just to get a small sweet glimpse of her....or even feel that she was somewhere around, no matter if i was able to see her or not, but she was somewhere right there....that it enormously filled the void inside me..... :)
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